Roll to WHO
Look around your world pretty baby
Is it everything you hoped it’d be
The wrong guy, the wrong situation
The right time to roll to me
Look into your heart pretty baby,
Is it aching with some nameless need.
Is there something wrong and you can’t put your finger on it
Right then, roll to me
And I don’t think I have ever seen a soul so in despair
So if you want to talk the night through
Guess who will be there?
So don’t try to deny it pretty baby,
You’ve been down so long you can hardly see
When the engine’s stalled and it won’t stop raining
It’s the right time to roll to me

I got a call on the DVC hotline today just as i was leaving work. This woman who called had a story that just made me ache for her. I did all i could for her, gave her numbers to call, and just listened to her. Yet little did i know that her story was nothing more than a peice of fiction. BUT she did have a real story that made me physically sick. I cannot bare to repeat it but when vainity comes to the point when you will give away someone elses chance to live because you can't bare to have a simple scar on your flesh - what has this world come to?
WHO can i roll to? I was faced with the decision of submurging my feelings of this event or letting them out and keeping htem out. I chose to let them show. BUt i was soon shown that that had been the wrong decision... as i was expected to put on a fake smile and pretend it hadnt happened.. practice makes perfect and i did as i was expected. I literally went to the restroom and 'washed my hands' of the situation... and began my act. When the night came to a close and i was left to myself, the act came to an end as i sat in the parking lot crying out to God. Who can i 'roll to'? God. bc it is always 'the right time' to roll to Him.
i was recently told that in order to survive my job... which i do love, i would have to be 'prayed up'. i hope i get there.